by AuroraFebruary 6, 2018
I would say that I was numb for these whole two weeks that I’ve known I was pregnant.
I was 7 weeks when I found out. Getting an abortion was a no-brainer. I am going to school without a job or money and still living at home with my parents. My “partner/partners” are not told. My Best friend, sister, and mother know.
Mother knows best…when she tries to shame you and make you feel alone about it. Tells you how stupid you are. Well yeah I suppose I didn’t feel that way before I talked to her and maybe that’s how I needed to feel.
Honestly at first I wanted to tell everyone I knew. This could be a learning lesson and I was curious to hear about other people’s stories or experiences with this kind of thing or even offer up mine to them for if they ever come across something like this again.
But I didn’t tell anyone…I think I need to now.
Waiting to get an abortion is the hard part. With only two clinics in all of Alberta the wait time is at least a week to get an appointment. Booked! I feel like a zombie walking through my life until the day. Arrived! Everyone is very nice at the clinic, but I notice all the women are with their boyfriends or significant others. A ping of regret starts to hit me “how could you get pregnant with someone who you barely know” guess I messed up. Abortion was more painful than I though it would be but I honestly though it wasn’t going to hurt at all. I could handle the pain and took it as a – yeah let’s not have to do this again.
It’s one day post and I’m feeling alright just pretty emotional for no reason. I’ll take it easy today and then see how the weekend goes. I want to share my story. I am not ashamed, but people around me seem to think I should be ashamed and that makes me self conscious and worried about sharing with others.
Thanks for sharing your stories it helped make me stronger.